| Title: | Mrs J. Scott [Bristol?] to Mrs Anne Scott, Co. Londonderry. |
|---|---|
| ID | 2406 |
| Collection | Irish Emigration Database |
| File | Scott, Jane/184 |
| Year | 1835 |
| Sender | Scott, Jane |
| Sender Gender | female |
| Sender Occupation | unknown |
| Sender Religion | unknown |
| Origin | Bristol, England |
| Destination | Derry, N.Ireland |
| Recipient | Scott, Anne |
| Recipient Gender | female |
| Relationship | sisters |
| Source | T 2609/7: Copied by Permission of Mrs J. F. Hodges, Glenravel House, Glenravel, Co. Antrim. |
| Archive | The Public Record Office, N. Ireland. |
| Doc. No. | 9702281 |
| Date | 21/08/1831 |
| Partial Date | |
| Doc. Type | LET |
| Log | Document added by LT, 24:02:97. |
| Word Count | 1264 |
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| Transcript | BRISTOL 21 AUG 1835 Py POST [Bristol Penny Post postmark 21 Aug 1835?] DERRY AU 24 1835 [Londonderry arrival postmark 24 Aug 1835?] 4M 23 AU 23 1835 [Dublin transit postmark 23 Aug 1835?] Derry Penny Post [Londonderry Penny postmark undated?] No.2 [Penny Post office arrival mark undated Number 2 sub Post Office under Londonderry?] 1/5 [manuscript postal marking indicating 1s 5d postage paid?] Mrs Scott Willsborough L'Derry [Londonderry?] Ireland August 21st 1835 My dear Anne I take up my pen to address you on a subject too deeply interesting to us both. I wish to know if you [view?] the intended departure of our truly beloved Jane on the same point of ruin that I do fraught with danger to herself of every kind yet I know not only I should ask you your answer cannot change her purpose or comfort me, only I believe you to be very fond of her, also I believe you to have made some progress in spiritual attainments therefore you can view it on all its leanings when I venture to say with so delicate a frame and small measure more cannot be required of you than what you do, she gets suddenly agitated and I am forced to desist. do not suppose it is from any selfish feel [sic] of not wishing to part with her, that I thrust aside, and write, regards her own happiness & satisfy mine. I [saw?] that she had strength for the undertaking and that it was a plain call of duty. I could resign her self fully but my heart trembles when I think of her slight frame bearing all the difficulties that present themselves to my mind her argument is this were she to remain after receiving such a summons and her father to die in the course of the winter she would have the [pang?] of a murderer on her conscience all the days of her life, and I really think she would take such a [weirde?] of it here after I would sooner part with her [now?], than her [sink?] under the weight of an [unsung?] conscience I therefore feel that silence becomes a duty my mother has had a slight attack of fever brought on by cold, but by giving way to it in time, and taking medical advice she is recovering quite well and I have not had any great anxiety on that account yet. Doctor Fox pronounced her to be ill but not very ill. Georges letter has just arrived and has given comfort to Mrs P's mind my mother and [Bernard?] saying it is a different point of view disturbed her much though it did not tempt her in the least to [suc---?] from her purpose. the Lord will take care of his own, and to his care we must commit her, she [leaves?] this for [Liverpool?] I fear in less than a fortnight but she [insists?] in adding a postscript in this, and I will give you all particulars - I [must?] now conclude with love to all remain ever yours We think it better to wait your answer to my letter before we give Miss Addis more notice. I rejoice George holds his resolve of wintering at Torquay as agreed so [well?] [with?] [time?] I may crop a little of this - I shd [should?] write to [dear?] George by this post but wait for my uncle [Tenley's?] answer - I look upon the money in his hands as belonging to my [dear?] child, for which reason I have never mentioned it, & shd [should?] be sorry anyone looked on it as mine - my dear Father tells me to get some money ( my Uncle [Tunley's?] was about sending out to him), to help out with the preparations &c - I also asked my uncle to lend me 50, to be paid when my quarter's pay becomes due 1st Oct - bitter tears the request cost me - nothing but the [niggling?] of the case could lead me to it - I have not got an answer - should he have sent the money already to Canada, or in any way not to like to lend me - in that case, I wd [would?] take the loan of part of the money in George's hands, to be paid from my quarter's pension 1st Oct - I wrote in haste - you may suppose how much I have to think of & to do - dear Mama will have told you all abt [about?] our dear Mother. - also the governess - thank you dearest for your kind letter - I must have done - affetn [affectionate?] love to dear Thos [Thomas?] - may God bless you both & love to the dear little ones from C. & self - [love?] dearest Anne Yr [Your?] most affect [affectionate?] attached sister J. Scott Never was I settled so entirely to my mind since coming to Clifton & Charlotte I hope [minds?] imposing with Miss [Marmont?], who is most valuable as a teacher - My poor Father's state of health [plans?] my going to Canada in a different point of view from what it wd [would?] be if he was strong & well - if it is the will of God to remove him, I wd [would?] have no tie then for dearest Letitia wd [would?] come out here with me - she does not in any way try to induce me to go - & Agnes's letter is evidently written from a sense of duty both to my Father & me - it wd [would?] be no object to him having me - he is very happily married - & Kitty too - she is entirely cut off from my Father & L. in winter - my poor Father's term of life we have every reason to fear will be but short - you may suppose how much need I have now to look up - bless you [dearest?] (beginning of my letter) My beloved Anne - I shd [should?] have written before now only that [Chas?] [M?] told you of me - & send letter to show George I know you wd [would?] be - his answer arrived this morning & is a relief to my mind - indeed I feel sure if he & you & Thos. [Thomas?] took in all the circumstances, it must appear the way of duty - & from that one dare not draw back - nothing else could lead me to take such a step, as far as I know myself - it is my poor Father's express desire - nothing could speak plainer than his letter to me recd [received?] some time before [Agnes's?] wishing me to sail next [Oct-?] - I then thought all things were against my going - & that [unless?] the way [be?] more plainly marked I shd [should?] be afraid to venture on it. - how far I was too easily turned aside by my own deceitful wishing to remain free, & making too much of the obstacles, is [torn] to say - I cd [could?] only pray our God would force me into the right way. I was disinclined for it - [Agnes's?] letter telling of my poor father's increased & repeated desire to see me, speaks too plainly to be easily mistaken - our God [Jehovah's?] strength equal to one day only - & that He vouchsafes me at present - our dear & [tried?] Mother does not see it in the same light I do, & I cannot tell you what pain it is to me to be obliged to differ from her so decidedly - I feel the support & guidance of our God peculiarly helpful now - it is not withdrawn - I have been better than usual in health of late - greatly better than last summer so that I dare not think there was anything in health to keep me back - [---?] |
